Don't try to lose us cause it's right where you'll find us
Don't try to bruise us cause it's right where you bleed
Don't call me a stranger, we're your brothers and sisters
Try to refuse when it's just what you need

Here tomorrow, gone today
We're a part of the secret parade
Here tomorrow, gone today
We're a part of the secret parade

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feeling all out of sorts.

i need You to save me.

2:48 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

Oh what peace, the Spirit of Jesus brings
through the trials He will carry me
One day in heaven our eyes will meet
filled with wonder
all the saints will sing

Hallelujah!
What a Saviour!
I owe everything to Him!
Hallelujah!
What a Saviour!
Hallelujah to my King!

11:43 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

“She came out of a man’s rib,
Not from his feet to be walked on.
Nor his head to be superior.
But from the side to be equal;
Under the arm to be protected;
And next to the heart to be loved.”

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat,
or will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the man who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in pjs.
Who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on.
Who apologizes first even if he feels he was in the right,
because being right won’t matter if you go to bed angry.
When you tell a joke he will laugh out loud.
Who loves God more than he loves you, so he'll be loving you in the way that pleases God more than the flesh.

“A man is in love when he sees her for the first time. Again. And again."

Abi, "22's the year caron."

i don't know about that. but i wait upon You, not man.



long names, that mean nothing to me,
but all the world to that little one.
it lay breathing on plastic,
four pairs of eyes looking at it,
in shock and confusion and despair.
no words could describe what we felt.
blood, fluid, and paper.
relief, guilt and death for the two who were once one.
now,
it lies unclaimed, unwanted.
tears to hold back,
shock unspoken.
confidentiality breached for a moment.
that brief time in space,
when all around seemed to collapse.
emotions and sights, smell, that will stay for days that might not end.

if i were to lose my way,
would you find me?
if i were to run,
would you catch me?
if i were to cry,
would you hold me in your arms?
if i were to fall,
would you catch me?
if i were to lose myself,
would you stay beside me?
if i forget who i am,
would you remember who i was?
if i fall down and apart,
would you fix me?
if i went and lost myself,
would you know where to find me?

i know You would.
time and til eternity,
for You created time.

11:34 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

how is it that such emotions are evoked?
what goes through their minds when they see us.
are we such nuisances?

and i shall take it in,
or lay them at your feet.

i just need your peace and comfort and strength right now.

the angst in me.

11:55 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

more of You and less of me
Lord i pray that there might be
more of You and less of me

the difficult few days.
and what a struggle it is to represent You correctly.
watch the tongue lady, and the thoughts that pass through your head.


the pang that hit her heart and head
what frailty and descant mass of solid beating
couldn't there be more to it
or yet,
and yet,
they won't come.
for the guards held them back.
look upon the One who bled and died
then
and be still.
knowing amidst throbs and beating hearts
breaths and pulses through veins
He watches over.

shall i leave a smile or a grimace?
or an unturned face.
the many thoughts that run to and fro.

help me be still for a moment,


the best place to run,
is into the arms of God.
-Martin Smith

12:54 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

how many times
have i turned away?
the number is the same as the sand on the shore.
how many times You've taken me back,
i pray You'd do it once more.

please take from me my life
when I don't have the strength to give it away to You Jesus.

new year.
and i'm walking it terribly wrong.
i need You so much more,
not anything or anyone else.

so many decisions to make already,
and i cannot make it.

the fork at the road,
i know not which to walk.
too weak,
the heart is.
too burdened,
the mind is.
and the ball of yarn sinks deeper into the water.
yarn that makes the cloak
and the winter wear for the coming storm.


how sweet to hold a newborn baby
and better and greater still,
knowing that child can live uncertain days
because He lives.

i will pray for the infant i feed and hold and touch.
overwhelmed by the surge of emotions.

desperately need time to sit and think and pray and just bask in Your presence.

the day is dimming and i'm yearning for You
let me not be satisfied til i see Your face.
every tick and every cross,
every right and wrong,
You can take it all away.

every heartbeat You hear
every cry You listen to
moves Your heart
You amaze me


swing the sword,
make war
against the inner and the unseen.
the battle wages again,
and what shall come of it?
wounded soldier,
look upon the One who won
the ultimate fight
and victory sealed.
give a smile and
.
the heart is weak
your eyes cannot see.
then let the hand of grace lead
you home.

there's no where else to run into
than into the arms of God.

i shall collapse there tonight.
day is done,
gone the sun.

12:50 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

2nd day of the new year.
missed the 1/1/11 post.

reading the lyrics of marcus' song made me feel like writing again.
been a long time.
it steals my time and takes away the feeling of sitting there and holding the pen and guitar in hand.
and right now, i wish i could.
but my body and mind protests and urges me to slumber.

the new year has already come,
and i feel so unprepared.

Lord, what is it that You want me to learn this year?
the past year was difficult already,
what's next?
but with You,
i know it's enough.
You will carry me through.

i lift my eyes unto the One
who made me whole
who gives me life
and i bow in awe of You

You lift me up
You are my hope
let my life bring glory to Your Name

Jesus
oh Jesus
lift high the name of Jesus in this place
Jesus
You conquered the grave
overcame sin
You are my Saviour,
You are my Lord

12:31 AM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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